I don’t think I’ve spent more than 3 hours total any night this week and last night was no exception. I keep thinking about all the things we could have done differently. What if my Dr. had started me on lower doses of the meds? What if I had gone in more frequently for monitoring? What if I had taken the meds a little later in the evening? What if? What if? What if?
Feeling very down.
My mind is racing and I simply can’t sleep.
The more I think about it, the worse I feel and perhaps it’s nearing the time that I accept that I have two beautiful children and stop trying so hard for more. I’ll do the retrieval, will do one post “freeze all” FET, but that may be all. Or will it be? Can I really just give up on my dream?